"I Can't Be Awake with Myself"is the title of my current mental state. This mental state was named such YEARS ago....it's secret language for. "I have PMS."
I just called my DH and told him, "I can't be awake with myself. I don't feel like myself." He said I didn't sound like myself, and reminded me who the real me is...that I CAN handle my life, that I DO love my life, that I WILL be glad about going to rehearsal tonight, and i would regret quitting something I have not yet begun. The "I Can't Be Awake with Myself" Kage is not allowed to make any important decisions...because she is never right.
The rehearsal is for a reading of an Opera in One Act by my same friend who did the concert about a month ago. The real me is excited about this. The me that is here right now is feeling overwhelmed, bogged down, and like I can't be awake with myself.
So, I think I will go watch The 4400 or maybe the rest of Ferretts: The Pursuit of Excellence. Watching this lady sing the ferrett song again is SURE to help me stay awake with myself: