So, I thought I was feeling the old recession before, but I am feeling it on a new level now.
And I am ok with it.
Cutting back has forced me to focus. I am focusing on why I am cutting back (daughter's education), how to do it (needs only!), and I am counting my blessings (seriously---that's for you Carrie) .
Instead of panicking, I am affirming that today is today. I have heat, shelter, food, health. Tomorrow is tomorrow. Now is now.
I am motivated to get to those auditions. I got lazy last year because I coasted after jobs early in the year. Now I am back, I am paying attention, my kids are being good when I drag them to auditions (I guess it's not that bad when you are showered with attention, highlighters from the desk drawers to color with, everybody knows your name, and you occasionally score some cupcakes!), and I am trying to be good too.
The last two commercial auditions I have had I have been put on hold...so I have a little momentum, that got a bit side-swiped b/c I am wrangling today and forced to miss a callback. Grrrrr.....
I have had to cut my daughter's child care. No more two-days-a-week of mommy time. This I am trying to embrace. My mantra: Someday I will regret that I didn't spend more time with them when they were babies.....
I had a few months break from cleaning my house...no longer. Man, that was nice, and I did appreciate Maria when I had her. And, won't I burn more calories cleaning my house myself?
I inherited a breadmaker. I am not sure if that is going to save me money...it might just add a bunch of comfort and carbs (read cellulite) to my life....mmmmm....warm bread....but my fave bread is 4.19 a loaf, so making my own has got to be cheaper right?
And Counselor K will have to take a back seat as well. Knowing that I cannot process when I need to, is also helping me to focus on more self-care.
So...here we go. I am finally in it. I am considering changing my stage name: Thrifty Glass. People might not get it, they might think I have a speech impediment.