It's a new therapy.
I've traded in behavioral therapy for speech therapy.
Oh yeah, good times.
My vocal chords have been out-of-whack for a while. I went to get their picture taken a month ago, and I have not seen swellings on my chords THAT big, EVER.
I almost ralphed on the doctor because he didn't numb my throat as he took the picture. He thought I could do it, oh no, my gag reflex is NICELY developed after those two babies I grew.
He suggested 6 weeks of speech therapy to bring down the swellings and to return for another examination/photo in 10 weeks time.
Off I went.
Speech Pathologist, Dr. Carroll is super smart and passionate about her craft and amazing and at first I felt about 5 years old in her presence. 4 weeks later, I am feeling around 10. At my first appointment she told me that if I do not speak every word of my day as a professional then what's coming out of my mouth is trash. Ouch.
My first task was to speak with more vowel sounds, less consonant clips. The first day Lolly was confused: Mom, why are you talking like that? Yes, it did take me about 24 hours to work it out. I began by speaking too high, but then I settled into my normal speaking register, but speaking in a way that is easier on my vocal chords.
My new routine is to sing before I speak for the day. I actually sing in the gym as part of my stretch routine. If someone else is there, I wait until they are properly plugged into their ipods before I sing a little.
To improve my voice and get healthy and sing better....is daunting and overwhelming and it's a crossroads. Can I do it? Can I practice? Can I warm-up each day? Can I speak healthy all the time? Will I?